My life has been somewhat of my own private shit show lately. Some things are of my own misguided creation, some of things I have no control over. Yes, I am sober but not really thinking sober and just frustrated with things.

This evening I had to do laundry after work as I prefer to go later in the evening when no one is there so I can be alone. I heard a stumbling around the corner and a lady was talking to me obviously having a bad day. She was overly talkative and asked for a cigarette. As she was talking she told me she was in NA (I myself am in AA), I just listened to her and her story. She had no place to go and it seemed like no one really cared about her or her well being. Her story was the usual; everybody let her down and what nots, various medical problems, nowhere to go and she obviously had mental issues.

As I was finishing my laundry I asked her if she’d like me to get her a hotel room for the night. She seemed shocked and was concerned about the cost and I said don’t worry about it since there was no way in hell she was staying with me and there was no place for her to go.

When we got to the hotel the lady at the counter was also familiar from the rooms. As I signed the papers paying for it I told her;
“now, the conditions are don’t destroy the room, when you get up tomorrow do what you need to do and when you are in a better place do this for someone else in need”.

As I left I told the receptionist “I was never here”.

Now, I’m expecting some rather expensive medical bills, I am not rich or really all that well off and this will set me back. I did this not because of any religious faith or trust in a God or trying to get into heaven. I did it cause no one fucking cared about this woman. Society sucks. I know how it feels to not have anyone give a shit about you; that feeling of loneliness. Maybe she’s someone who makes a habit of this. But, maybe we can all be better human beings when needed instead of balling about our petty problems.